When I posted the poll, asking readers to share their feelings regarding the fast-approaching new year, I wasn’t really aware of how I felt about this year coming to a close — there are work related changes on the horizon and I was (and still am) seriously considering getting out of the wedding business. Seriously.
What about this year? Well, as usual, there were challenges — It’s so hard sometimes to view people/circumstances through heavenly lens. There were moments, where God took the time to reveal ungodliness in my own life — and then show mercy and kindness, that often left me feeling so…unworthy. I’ve often wondered exactly why God is so good to me. It’s unnerving.
I’ve been saved, since I was a youngin’, and I still wait for the wrecking ball to come swinging down through my life — as “payment” for the numerous times I’ve fallen short. As insane as that sounds, it’s the truth. As much as I know about God’s amazing grace, the grace that nobody deserves, I’m still amazed by it all. What a God!
God’s presence and provision is evident in my life, and in the lives of my friends and family. My parents will see the close of another year. My friends are happy, healthy and still serving God. I still have a job. This year was free of any significant drama.
As I sit here typing my yearly “year in review” post, on the eve of 2008, I’m actually feeling quite blessed, and fortunate to have the opportunity to make yet another year count for something(s) that’ll give God glory, and do me good.
Happy New Year!
Listen here you sweet little nappy girl… Satan just loves to tag us with those guilt feelings.
I spent years wallowing in that junk. Sometimes it put me on my knees… in the shower no less… when I’d suddenly remember some ungodliness in my life. And these were things that God had already forgiven me for. Beth Moore helped me to realize that those times were Satan’s whispers :twisted and what I was doing was telling God that His forgiveness wasn’t good enough. That set me back on my heels in a hurry.
Once I realized that, I don’t have those agonizing moments of shame anymore… often. They come, but they go quickly.
Happy New Year! I pray yours is a beautiful year :)
Gina,
Yep, ain’t that the truth! Thank you so much, Gina, for the blessings — I’m praying the same for you! :heart
You have been a blessing to me :)